Thursday, July 30, 2009

It's my interview for UGAT org application tom 3pm. They'll critic my work, for the third time around. I'm nervous. :-/ I'm not expecting for a perfect interview/literary work/outcome. I'm simply hoping that they would appreciate my big efforts in improving my work. I never thought applying would be this harsh.
Kiss me goodluck people. Pray for me. :* >:D<

Monday, July 27, 2009

Naki-rally ako! Yeaaaaaaah! It was a different type of experience. And I may say, nothing can overcome it. The hassle and everything are worth it. I mace history with almost 11, 000 people. Their efforts now reflected to me vibrantly that I felt extremely lucky having this bountiful life. :D
Ang galing galing ni God. Humingi ako ng simpleng sign sa kanya, ang laki laki ng binigay niya :3 waa. He sent Kuya Pol Diva for me to appreciate UGAT matters. He told me they don't need perfection. Honest efforts are enough for them. And he sees that in me. :( :) I'm so touched and overwhelmed. I don't know how to return the favor, the conversation, the advice he gave me. But I know, this could have not been possible without God who has always been my greatest and best companion. I love you :)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Rebonded na hair ko! :) The reflection in the mirror looks gorgeously perfect! Hahaha
Lord di ko na alam gagawin ko sa ugat. Naiiyak na ako ngayon. I don't know if I can give it up just like that. I don't know if I can let go of my acads just like that. There's a feeling inside, na at least try mo Yane. : :( but almost 80% tells me not to pursue it coz it will hurt me rather....
I need a sign. I will ask you for a sign then please guide that sign so I would know where and how to go. : Lord, help me. I don't know what to do. :(
:(

Thursday, July 23, 2009

"I'm sick and tired." -Ate Sierra Mae Paraan
Magtatagalog na ako. Ang hirap ng course ko. Ang hirap ng application sa UGAT. Ang hirap ng college life. Ang hirap ng U.P. life :( :)
Hindi kasi masarap mag-aral kung hindi mo kinukuha ang pinaka-gusto mong course. Tena talaga! : Sakit sa ulo, sa mata, sa puso : :(
Winorkshop ang akda ko kanina. At alam mo ba?? Walang tama doon! Tena talaga! :
Goodnight! :

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I feel dizzy : well, it's kind of luck to experience this for it's tragic. No. My health is tragic. And it's fatal. :)
I so crush my crush who I find have no crush at me but I'm still crushing him. He's none other than. JOKE. hahaha :D
Err. Lord, help me with my quiz tomorrow. There are lots of figures, symbolisms to memorize, yet I couldn't set my mood to study. A little help?? I know you could take all my worries away. :) One more thing... I lift to you my poem. As I revise it tomorrow, let me feel your presence so I won't feel alone and pressured and devastated.. as a poet haha! :( Lastly, please bear with the coming EUPHORIA! I have done all my efforts. So it's up for your plans to decide who or not would/could come. But I hope...... 50 sila! plus more! The more the better. The merrier. The louder. The naughtier. The funnier. HAHA! Kaya to Lord! :) Love you po <3

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Pag nagka-anak ako,
  • I want him/her to be a fluent English speaker
  • I want him to be enrolled in Kumon (for Math purposes, just in case he/she is worse than me.)
  • I want him to practice driving during his 1st year high school years
  • I want him to finish at Ateneo De Manila University BA Law or Uiniversity of the Philippines Diliman Doctorate (yeah right :p)
  • I want him/her to ber sports inclined, at least in ice skating, which is my dream since I was a child.
  • More to follow.

Lots of things I want to offer him... :)

Nalulungkot ako for Jumpei :( Sino ba pwedeng tumuong sa kanya? I wanna help him! But I don't know how. :( I hope there's more for him in the near future. Hays. :
1.5 sa Fil25 paper ko? Waaa Lord, isn't that pretty amazing? :p Thank you sooooo much :)
"Dear Lord, sana po marami maka-experience ng extreme happiness sa EUPHORIA HS High a Sat, 3-8pm. Kayo na po baala sa FEU Fern YFC. Thank you po. Amen."
P.S. Sana everyday niyo rin to dinadasal. >:D<

I have just sent this GM to my Fern family. I felt the urge to do something, even little something, for Euphoria. I soooo love it :)

Monday, July 20, 2009

I'm still up 3:30 in the morning staring at my laptop's monitor. and I think I have gone crazier and wildier and wackier (if there exist such words.) Fil 25 paper is putting too much pressure in my head. Imagine a news writer doing a paper of manly description, pare, solely description of a person on how he/she walk/talks etcetera. How am i suppose to do that? Whooooo. Good thing I have chosen Shauna, it would be easier and funnier. I get to remember my bhest even I'm fully loaded with school works. Lord, I trust in you. I lift all my concerns. Kayo na po bahala. Amen :)
Moreover this day, I had this take home quiz in Filipino 50 to be submitted today at the Filipino dept. Then until 3 pm, I'm still working on it. My mind is rattling of the things I could have done earlier. So I would not need to cram and do the details at the due date itself. Arg! It's mentally and physically exhausting.
Bakit pa kasi ako nagkaron ng Facebook. Specially the Restau city. Ka-adik. :)
But, I guess, I'm building friends thru this social network.. more of my panic story soon. Haha I thought I graduated from it na eh. Not yet pa pala :D
Dear Lord, i wanna thank you for this wonderful day! This isn't just wonderful. But great, spectacular, fascinating and awesome! Got nothing more to say.
Being with my YFC FEU Fern family brought number of miracles in my life.
  • Multitasking
  • Martyr, i guess?
  • I start treating people as sisters/brothers
  • Time mgmt? uhm. soon. haha
  • Lesser burden (even though it's more burden in my sked)
  • New friends
  • Happiness
  • Contentment

See? What else will you look for? It's just so perfect in my eyes. :)

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Wanna change my url into:
  • blogeristah
  • twistofnails
  • laughnotloud
  • donotacceptifsealisbroken
  • expiredblog
  • noparking

Which one kaya? HAHA

Saturday, July 18, 2009

They misinterpret. Kuya ronel do.
Seth really is something. He's an awesome friend to have. :)
Why all of a sudden, people have to go and immigrate? Have I done something bad for them to take away most of my precious friends? It's kinda hurting.
Seth's grad will be on 2001 and by that time his father will be taking him to abroad, and there he will be given a high-income job. Of course, for engineers. The fact that he will become successful in the near future, is approving for me. But the idea of he, too, leaving the country, makes me weak all of a sudden.
I hope minor disruptions would occur so as to delay him. haha kidding :) I would miss him a lot :(

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Happy birthday Julian Ching :)

~a lot has changed. but I'm still missing you. hope you'd get this message, for can't gather enough strength to text or comment you :( i still feel guilty at everything. and i regret it. you must know that.

could not contain.

I'm extremely happy for my best friend Dyari. Contrast to what I expected, i didn't feel jealous for his attention after all. This, for the first time, I freed my self from his capturing embrace. and it feels so good after all. :)
Having entered Kalayaan college, he met his new girl. simple yet charming from within. she has this captivating smile and compared to other girls he had, she's an ordinary girl. no kikay-stuffs. plain. I adore those girls who could carry themselves even just thru their tee and pants and slippers outfit.
I really hope their relationship would last. I don't want my Besty to get hurt. again.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

missed here.

Good thing this blog isn't public, I could share my my ideas, thoughts, my thousand of thoughts, any time of the day or month. Can't find multiply.com as exciting as what others see...i only admire their photo album, for pictures there have unlimited storage! And that could serve as your online USB, no need for hardware devices to keep bulk of your photos.

I think my last blog was last month, school has been keeping me busy and unaware of my online accounts, websites, blogger, etcetera. School increases my anxiety level and I could feel pressure within the four corners of our room.

Though I'm not yet acquainted with my blockmates, i think, though, they're fun to be with. All i have to do is let myself get exposed with their trips and activities. Simple as, I need to lay my trust bank open to them. If i can't, then God would open it for me.