All are intended to be lies. Lies that left tremendous scars, not just in my plain solemn heart but also in the deep soul of my eternal life. Yeah sounds corny, but what do u expect from a fool like me? HA HA.
It's like raising a child and killing him at 18. At first, full of loves and hopes, then when end is getting near, pains and sufferings brings you to nowhere, but hell.
If only this fear of rejection didn't hinder me from spitting the truth to him, probably I would speaking of these words "At least I tried....so did I not regret it."
PERO NO EH!!! It seemed like a whole mass of Earth (acceleration due to gravity = 9.8 N. haha p6 trivia. lawl.) yung barrier between us, kaya kahit ikaw yun you would prefer to hold back rather fight for ur feelings. Kasi, parang worthless yung efforts.
Sweet memories..loving moments..(all though one-way communication lang siya) He marked a HUGE place in my heart. H U G E ha, still hoping na nagkamali ako sa aking mga assumptions.
Oh well.. that's how life must be. As I roll down the ground, somebody will pull me back and now I'm on top, ONCE AGAIN.
Loving is very masarap..I know kahit we've been hurt many times, many of us will Lurve once again and again and again and again..kasi worthy yung experience. parang roller coaster ride sa perya na even your experiencing ultra dizziness na, u would want to feel that THRILL once again or even more. :))
And so......this is my last blog for slash about him. Importante siya masiyado if "for" gamitin ko, kaya about nalang haha.
No more tears. No more crying crying. And pretend it's all a................. BIG JOKE.
